21 June 2009

Your Light Will Shine When All Else Fades

I feel pain right now.
As they all say, first cut is the deepest.
It is really painful now.

It happened in the church kitchen this morning, right before Bible study class. I got cut in between my fingers by a cup that broke. I did not feel the immediate pain of the accident. In fact I didn't even realize that my hand was covered with blood. And mind you, the cut was pretty deep till I can see my own flesh. Looked like chicken meat. Haha. Sadly, my hand has a hole now. =( And I think my right eye is infected because it is red for no reason. Hopefully it isn't conjunctivitis or anything serious. Anyway to my rescue came Bill Liew and three other aunties who were so happened in the kitchen and are also experienced nurses. They were trying to stop the blood, then they cleaned my wound with some antiseptic (I think). After being a little surprised at how on earth I injured my hand, I found it kind of funny. It didn't hurt as much, and I felt warm inside looking at the people around me who were so concerned for me even though I barely know them. It's nice to know that people care. =)

It got me thinking, that in order to know what happiness and joy is, one must first go through and know what pain is like. Other people's kindness, cares and concern, be it towards me or others, puts a smile on my face. I felt glad after I injured myself. Weird, I know. Lol. Like Vincent said, I was smiling and giggling instead of worrying about the wound. He said I seemed happy to cut myself. Doink fella. =.=''

Anyway, I never planned to write about this today, because I never thought something like this would have taken place. Will upload a photo of my delicate fingers later k? Hahaha.

I actually wanted to write about last night. It was night worship, we used the new EY crib in the new hall for the 1st time, and it was also my first time singing as back-up. It was a night of firsts. Hehh. We didn't have much practice because earlier we were busy setting up the equipments and instruments. And Bill Liew changed the songs last minute, and I had to learn 2 of 'em there and then! Imagine, my first time singing and I don't even know the songs! Obviously I wanted to do my best. I felt nervous and anxious, but still excited. I kept telling myself it is not the voice or the singing that matters most, but the desire and intention of praising and worshiping God from the heart. There were some off keys here and there, but I think I managed to pull it through. It felt great! I have always had the desire to sing in a worship team since I came to church, but never really said or do anything about it because I didn't think I had what it takes.

I realize, that all I really need is Him. I may not know much, or have much, but He worked through me. Today was my 2nd time handling the Bible study class, and I learned much from what I was suppose to teach, or I would prefer to use the word 'guide' my 'students'. The passage that I could relate most to was when God wanted to send Moses to bring the Israelites out of Egypt. Moses the horse, Moses the mule. I think I'm more of like the mule, which is a badddd thing. While studying the passage, it really spoke to me. God really spoke to me. I don't know where to begin on how He spoke to me or what He spoke to me about, but I know one thing: with God, everything is possible.

We humans tend to rely on our OWN abilities, our own talents, our own knowledge and understanding, our own everything. But who is the one who blessed us with whatever that we have right now? Is it not God? We don't actually own anything. Everything belongs to the Lord. He gave it to you, and He can take it away. Be it anything physical, material, etc. Who are we to say what we have or achieve is entirely by our own strength, hard work, intelligence and worth?

This weekend has been a long one for me. It may be one of the weekends where I really did something productive for God and learned much about Him and His goodness.

I feel that my journey has just only begun.

7 potatoes speak:

cheyenne said...

haha...glad to be able to play HERO to the rescue..anyway..rest your hand...and glad you have that desire to serve for God. N just to let you know, i think your voice is awesome..nurture this gift and use it for the glory of His Majesty.


katan said...

U did great daph....a great joy and blessing to see u serve both in worship and sunday school....Greater things, gal, greater things....

Huey Lin said...

Hey, surprised to see your link in my blog's visitor history page. Hehe. Am encouraged by your post. Yeah, sometimes hurts aren't that hurting because there is love =)

p/s: when you going back to hostel?

Lynn said...

cheyenne: Thanks.. =) The thing is I'm quite shy a person. Hehe. Hope to serve more in time to come..

Sing sing sing
*tralala~* =D

katan: I'm not a perfectionist, but hope I did alright. Yeah, greater things have yet to come, greater things are still to be done. =)

Huey Lin: Girl, I do read your blog okay. Teehee. Thanks! I'm going back on the 4th. In less than 2 weeks. *sobs* How bout you?

karmen said...

Hope you're fine. Glad that GOd has spoken to you in His special way. I pray that you'll be always sensitive to His voice. Amen. :)

Lynn said...

Kar Men: I'm alright here. My wound's healing slowly. I'm glad too =) Not only listen, but hopefully to understand and act on it. *hugs*

Huey Lin said...

I also probably going back on 4th but can we get the key on saturday? Hmm... I know your roomie's back but how am I going to get my keys? Hmmm...